Every passing day i see signs of you. you pop up on fb, someone will mention something that reminds me of you. I should be used to it by now shouldn't i? but i'm not. i miss you every single day. i think of you off and on all day. when i text the girls to say good morning i want to text you. i miss your snap chats and making you coffee. i miss the good times and the bad times. because they were times we spent together. the tears never seem to stop. they are always right at the edge of my eyes and the tugging is always there on my heart. the Goddess has not taken the pain i feel. i don't want her to. you were always a part of my life. you always will be. I sit at work and look at pictures and think, Lucy would like that as a tattoo. Your sisters and i are getting a tattoo of a baby elephant because an elephant never forgets and you never forget family. i wish you were here so you could get one too. dad misses you too. he taught you to ride a bike for crying out loud. 

Lucy why did you go? i miss you horribly. your family misses you. your kids miss you. your friends miss you. 

this is killing me.